I have built up my days with anticipation in this fraught season, with concerts, events, packages and visits. It is almost too much to get my mind around as these things will tick off one by one and on top of each other, and I anticipate them, and yet there is more to come, and more to do, and I think about the time when I will be past it all, the visits, holidays, the endless gift season, perhaps by February, at which time I will wonder if I have over anticipated it all, as I will then reckon with the fact that we are two years into this pandemic, which might have been the instigator for me to build up the fraught season so that I could have something to look forward to. But I am already anticipating these events and looking back on them in my mind as they are not dissimilar from events and occasions in the past and imagining they won’t be memorable for all that. Still, you have to enjoy yourself, and these distractions are part of that, to a point. It seems to me I’m talking about expectations, and that might be the key to hold onto, to temper one’s expectations. There is, within them, something of a known quantity.
Anticipation
Anticipation
Anticipation
I have built up my days with anticipation in this fraught season, with concerts, events, packages and visits. It is almost too much to get my mind around as these things will tick off one by one and on top of each other, and I anticipate them, and yet there is more to come, and more to do, and I think about the time when I will be past it all, the visits, holidays, the endless gift season, perhaps by February, at which time I will wonder if I have over anticipated it all, as I will then reckon with the fact that we are two years into this pandemic, which might have been the instigator for me to build up the fraught season so that I could have something to look forward to. But I am already anticipating these events and looking back on them in my mind as they are not dissimilar from events and occasions in the past and imagining they won’t be memorable for all that. Still, you have to enjoy yourself, and these distractions are part of that, to a point. It seems to me I’m talking about expectations, and that might be the key to hold onto, to temper one’s expectations. There is, within them, something of a known quantity.